The Legend of the Shi-sa

The Legend of the Shi-sa is part of what inspired my new novel, Scarlett & Aka: Imprint. Let’s look at the legend.

You’ve seen lion statues outside Chinese restaurants? Think of shi-sas as their cousins. Some people call them shi-shi, but that sounds ridiculous to me. We’re not talking about purse puppies with rhinestone collars and turquoise highlights.

Shi-sa statues can be found all over Okinawa on homes and places of business. Most are in pairs, one with an open mouth and one closed. People disagree on the significance of the open versus closed mouths, but you can think of it as the complementary roles of a shi-sa and her canine mate. Some shi-sa statues have a golden sphere under a front paw. While it looks like shi-sas are into soccer, the balls actually symbolize the goodness a shi-sa brings.

There are many versions of the story on how shi-sas came to be Okinawan protectors. Some say a little boy had a shi-sa amulet, while others say he was a king. According to legend, the amulet came to life and protected the people of a village near Naha, the southernmost city in Okinawa. There are further folktales of shi-sas protecting people from dragons, monsters, fires, and crop failure.

In the novel, I take the legend and make from it a race of supernatural canines who choose a human to partner with them in super powers. Here’s a little about the magic system in my novel:

Shi-sa warriors are female. Not male and not kings. Shi-sas are not stone. The lion-dog description is only that: a description. There’s no lion in them, despite having a couple of traits in common. Shi-sas are separate creations, supernatural and natural combined, much like human beings are physical while we also have an eternal part we refer to as our soul or spirit.

Shi-sas, warriors, and their small team of best friends and immediate family are adept at keeping secrets. They must be. Super powers could easily lead to unwanted celebrity, hampering their ability to move around a community undetected. Also, they wouldn’t want bad guys to know they were coming! Their role is to rescue, to solve, and to assist according to each pair’s special abilities. Being a thing of myth keeps them safe from prying eyes.

The book is told from Scarlett’s point of view. She’s the human warrior imprinted by a shi-sa puppy the morning she arrives in Okinawa from the United States. She tells the story looking back at her time as warrior, introducing the book thus: “I’ve always thought there should be a manual for shi-sas and warriors. I am preparing to mentor the duo that comes after my shi-sa and me, and my doctor has prescribed bed rest, so it’s the perfect time to produce a guidebook. I’ve never read a memorable manual. I learn better from stories, so I’ll start by telling ours. You, a warrior in training or person in her inner circle, can glean what you need from our tale. When I moved to Okinawa, I had no idea of the legend, let alone the reality. May you walk into your role with more clues than I had.”

Pictured is my dog, Midori, who inspired Aka’s character, and one of our many shi-sa statues. She was a Labrador-Akita mix with deep empathy. I adopted her in Okinawa and often joked that she was actually an Okinawan shi-sa. If she sensed depression in someone, she wouldn’t leave their side. She was a powerful swimmer, and sometimes startled scuba divers when they surfaced offshore. She moved with me to the States, and back to Okinawa, and then to the States again to marry my husband. She died in 2015, before the first draft of Scarlett & Aka: Imprint was finished.

Scarlett & Aka: Imprint, sample

This MP4 file is my amateurish attempt at turning the first three chapters of the first book in the Scarlett & Aka series, Imprint, into an audio book while a slideshow plays.

My husband and I took all of the photographs. They show Okinawa, especially some of the locations in the novel. Also shown are pictures of Midori, the dog who inspired Aka’s character.

The World Needs Your Thing


Last night, I watched the movie Yesterday.

It does a charming job of showing us what the world might be like if the Beatles had never been and their songs were never written. Woven in it is a lovely story of following your joy and finding love.

The movie has a few moments where the main character discovers that this new version of the world is also missing his favorite beverage and a beloved book series. We, the audience, are left to imagine the ripple effect of those not existing.  In our real world, they’ve had global impact.

Personally, the missing beverage wouldn’t impact me outside of the pop culture of its commercials. But the book series…woah. The joy and the positive influence on our world…gone? Non-existent?

I’m left with lots of thoughts.

  • -I hope everyone with a teenager, young adult, or someone who longs to make a mark on this world—I hope you get to watch this movie with them. Tell them that the world would be sadly lacking without that special thing they have to give.
  • -I hope that all the creative souls out there watch it. I hope they get the message to keep creating.
  • -I hope we all get the message that we have something to give. Something big, unique, and something that will have an impact. While you’re imagining a world without your favorite song, movie, book, or food, take it to the next level. The world needs that thing you have to give. Right now, we are without it. Please follow your joy and do this thing that you have to contribute to our world.

My personal application: I must finish the book I’m working on and put it out into the universe because it will touch people in a good way. There’s something missing without it, and I must do this thing.

Speaking to the Nomad in Us: The Yokota Officer’s Club

There’s no way someone could describe Okinawa and Yokota the way the author does in this book unless they had LIVED there.

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Bumped into a shi-sa on our wedding night

Once in a while, a book or movie comes along that resonates so deeply that you carry it with you for a long while. I recently finished such a book: The Yokota Officer’s Club.

(Click here to check it out)

I have so many people who I’d like to say this to: YOU HAVE TO, HAVE TO, HAVE TO READ THIS BOOK!!!

First, my OkiFam. Those are the people who were stationed in Okianwa, both when I was there and in their own time. The shared experience of living in that Hawaii-looking slice of Japanese heaven, of living in an American ex-pat military community—you can’t replicate it. If you’ve experienced it, then that common experience makes us family. OkiFam MUST read this book.

Next, my military community. Spouses, active duty members, retired—there’s something in the book for each of you.

My fellow military brats. Wow. This might be one generation older than mine, but my fellow brats…she captured what it’s like.

Third culture kids. If you grew up as one of these, then you must read this. The book reaches into your soul and puts it to words.

If you were an American child in the 50s, 60s, 70s or 80s, you need to read this. It might even work for kids of the 90s. She captured our sibling rivalry, the pop culture, and all the sensory details of our childhood. From the TV to the hygiene products to the sugared cereals and beyond. She puts you in the story by handing you all the sensory aspects of your own childhood.

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My review:

In the beginning, I felt like this book was an over-indulgent memoir. The author included sensory details that were over the top, especially with smells. While I’m wordy myself, I want the story to get on when I’m the reader. As vivid as her details were, they were bogging down the plot.

I decided to keep going because the author was capturing the sights and sounds and smells and feels of my most favorite place I’ve ever lived: Okinawa. I’m writing a book that takes place there, so I thought maybe it would remind me of some details to include in my own writing. I was reliving the place I loved, so the over-the-top descriptions let me experience it anew.

While the writer described Okinawa of the 60s Vietnam War era, about 75% of her details still held true when I was there from 2000-2006. The other 25% of the details were about the earlier days of US military’s presence there. I’ve been curious to learn about that time. While living there, I’d occasionally meet people who lived there before the USA turned it back over to the Japanese. The book helped me understand what the old timers were talking about.

Once the book was underway, a mystery began to surface. I was pulled in.

Our narrator is a college kid who attends the University of New Mexico in Albuquerque. Her large family is stationed in Okinawa, so she goes “home” to them for summer break. It’s the Vietnam War era, and she’s had lots of experiences in the civilian world that don’t translate to life on base overseas. Her narrative becomes her “working through” to assimilate both of her worlds.

Bernie, our narrator, has flashbacks to when she was little and they were stationed in Yokota on the Japanese mainland in the Post WWII of the 1950s. There is a disconnect between her younger days and the timeline of her “now.”

Bernie’s family culture was very different in the flashbacks than in the current days. Her parents were an amazing team in the 50s, but are disengaged and disrespectful of each other now.

The most noteworthy difference and the root of the mystery is the Japanese maid/nanny of Bernie’s childhood. Fumiko was a beloved family member when they were stationed at Yokota. Today, she’s the unmentionable.

Bernie’s self-identity in the “now” timeline starts out as the main focus of the plot, but the mystery of Fumiko’s exit from their lives is the most intriguing thread. Eventually Fumiko’s story takes over the book. What happened?

Bernie has a trip to the mainland (I won’t spoil why/how she goes), and flashbacks from her early childhood abound.

For me, the most riveting part of the book (forgive the semi-spoiler) is that we get Fumiko’s life story. She remembers how she survived the war as a child and how she survived the post-war days as a teenager. Fumiko she gives Bernie enough information to jog her memories about the days when she was a part of Bernie’s family. Bernie can then remember why her beloved Fumiko was banished from their lives.

We get the longed-for answers, and they are equally satisfying and disturbing.

A key to understanding the mystery is military culture back then. I must believe, as a military wife, that the military today no longer has such horrible dynamics in culture or command. I’ve seen elements of such, but I have to believe that there are checks and balances in place today to prevent the horrible outcome that befell this family.

The ending has all the feels…happy, sad, and everything in between.

Have I mentioned that YOU HAVE TO READ THIS!

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Please note that I “read” the audiobook. I highly recommend it. While the print version will be wonderful, I’m partial to the voices the narrator brought to the book.

She sounds exactly like a college girl in the 60s.

She sounds exactly like a little kid in the 50s.

Most amazing is the voice she does of the Japanese maid. She sounds exactly like a Japanese girl/woman navigating the English language.

The narrator transports you, and I think she did a better job than my imagination could have pulled off.

Try it!

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The book lived inside my head for a few weeks. The sensory details, the characters, and the utterly realistic aspects of their lives still resonate.

Please come back to comment if you decide to read the book. I’d love to hear your thoughts!

The Deep Magic of Sacrificial Love

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My husband got me hooked on Harry Potter when we were dating 13 years ago. Our 7 ½-year-old is catching the bug. We’ve been reading Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone out loud to him since January. I watched the movie with him when he was bored at home with the flu and strep for a few days last month, and he’s been reading a middle-grade reference book that came with a wand and Marauder’s Map.

Our 6 ½-year-old hasn’t been interested. He’d rather go to bed than listen to Potter.

We decided jointly last week that the youngest could watch the movie without reading the book. My hope was that he’d see what the family buzz is about and not feel left out of discussions. I think it worked. He’s trying to figure out which house he’ll be in, but we’re waiting until they’re 11 before we sort.

We watched the first half of the movie on Saturday, and the second half on Sunday during dinner.

It was Easter Sunday.

While Harry defeated Voldemort/Quirrell with his touch, turning the evil entity to dust, our boys asked for explanations. I had them wait until Professor Dumbledore explained the special deep magic of sacrificial love before elaborating.

My explanation then went something like this, “Harry’s dad died trying to protect his family from Voldemort. Harry’s mom loved him so much that she sacrificed her life for his. Because Harry received sacrificial love, it gave him the power to live and love and to defeat evil. Voldemort was so evil that Harry’s touch turned him to dust. Harry’s magic power came from being loved so deeply.”

The kids digested Dumbledore’s explanation and mine. We discussed the end of the movie. I’m not sure whether the kids brought it up first or whether I did, but we suddenly made a connection and understood:




We talked out the fact that Jesus, who willingly gave his life for us, gave us the power to live and to defeat evil.

My kids get it now.

We didn’t plan to watch Harry Potter on Easter. It just happened. And now they get it.


“Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends.” John 15:13

Look, Mom! Wisdom!

Or Nine Favorite Nuggets From Fifty Years of Living


When I was in my twenties, my mom said to me more than once, “Kristine, all you seem to do is chase after fun. I pray that you get some WISDOM!”

I would shrug and wonder what was so bad about having a good time. I still went to work, paid my bills, and dabbled at my Master’s Degree. Wasn’t fun what made the world go ‘round?

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About six months ago, it struck me that I was turning fifty soon. I planned on flying under the radar, hoping nobody outside of my family would recognize the significance of the date when it came. You see, I’m an older mommy. I was 42 and 43 when my kids were born. Most of my peers with kids my sons’ age are beautiful ladies in their twenties and thirties.

I sometimes forget all the fun and adventures I had living overseas and dating all the wrong guys while most of my friends my age were married and starting families at home. Instead of remembering how much I have LIVED, I often get stuck in a train of thought that says I’m a clueless newbee to parenthood and these younger women are so cool in their roles as moms.

I was eighteen when my dad turned 50. I thought it was an accomplishment worthy of exalting, so I told EVERYONE.

“No, really, you don’t have to tell people,” Dad pleaded kindly.

“Are you kidding?! You need to be celebrated, Dad!”

Now I know how he felt.

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I had a sort of epiphany this fall and decided to embrace my age. Arriving at this vintage age might give me enough clout to share what I’ve learned along the way.

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So here I am, arriving at fifty, and I actually have some wisdom to share! 

I have 9 nuggets of wisdom for you.

Here’s the list before I elaborate:

  1. People are doing the best they can.
  2. Have friends of varied world views.
  3. Shut down gossip.
  4. Tears are prayer.
  5. God is bigger than your faith tradition.
  6. Cater to your strengths. (You are a gift.)
  7. Follow your joy.
  8. Evolve
  9. Practice thankfulness.

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  1. People are doing the best they can.

I learned this from Brene Brown. I thought it was a load of crap at first. After all, I have willingly brought my B-game and my C-game places.

Two Christmases ago, I was so busy teaching at the local community college that I brought my C-game to decorating the house and doing pre-Christmas activities with my sons. Because of this, I believed that, if I was willing to not do my best at times, then I was living proof that people aren’t always doing their best.

Another example would be the times my college students turned in assignments that they didn’t give their all. I knew they could do better. Again, Ms. Brown’s statement was proven false.

Or was it?

Maybe my students and I were willing to do less than our best because that’s all we had to give at the time.

That Christmas season, while I was giving a sizeable part of my heart and my energy to students, I wasn’t willing to expend 100% of my energy on Christmas decorations. My husband and I are probably the only ones who knew that the Christmas décor was simpler that year. While I left my silver tumbleweeds in their boxes and put out fewer nativity scenes, I knew that my kids had a good Christmas. They didn’t miss out on any of the magic.

Maybe my students had bigger things going on, and they were okay with turning in a B or a C product. It’s better than not doing the assignment at all, right? I bet that’s all they had to give at the time.

So, even though those students and I were capable of more, maybe there was another factor: we chose to allocate our energies elsewhere, dividing things up as best we could.

Brene Brown’s husband told her that it helps his peace of mind to treat each person as if they are giving their best. I realized that adopting his mindset helps me treat people with respect and value. I completely buy into it now because it honors people. It has improved my quality of life and my peace of mind to assume they are giving their best.

If I haven’t convinced you, let Brene Brown tell you herself. Go here to listen to her chapter on “Sewer Rats and Scofflaws” from her book Rising Strong:


  1. Have friends of varied world views.

Love them for who they are, with no objective to change them.

Listen to their opinions. Let those opinions either strengthen your own opinions or adjust them.

Be fully present to them. Let them grow your horizons.

And here’s something I need to heed better myself: be second to share your views.


  1. Shut down gossip.

Speaking of friends, make sure you acknowledge the need for confidentiality when someone shares with you. Ask for it. Offer it. There’s value in being straightforward. This is the ticket to a healthy relationship.

Do you share things that aren’t your place to share?  That diminishes my trust of you.

If you share other people’s business in order to connect, then you’re creating a counterfeit relationship.

Know the difference between sharing to care and sharing to be a vulture. If a mutual friend needs you both, then share with this end in mind. Then bring the casserole, call to check on her, or whatever is appropriate. If you’re sharing a juicy tidbit because it’s the latest fodder for conversation, consider consuming a brownie instead. It will look far better on your hips than having the reputation of a vulture.


  1. Tears are prayer.

One day, I wept for what a friend was facing.

It was going to be a busy day, and I had to pull it together, so I needed to pray for her and leave it in God’s hands. As I dried my tears and fought to form words to petition God, the Holy Spirit showed me in a vision that I had already prayed. THE TEARS WERE THE PRAYER.

God didn’t need words or formality. I didn’t have to address it to him because my very being had already done that. Heaven had heard the tears and was acting upon them.

Before you think this idea absurd, I found out later that it’s Biblical: Psalm 56:8 says, “You yourself have counted up my sorrows, collect my tears in your wineskin.” Romans 8:26 also applies here, “In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words…” The part of us that was made to cry is able to share the “groan” with God directly.

If tears are prayer, and all human beings cry, then we were made to pray.

If tears are prayer, and all human beings cry, then everybody has prayed. Even atheists. Even people of a different religion than yours or mine.

If tears are prayer, then everybody has been heard in heaven.

Every human being is worthy, is enough, is loved, and is heard by God.


  1. God is bigger than your faith tradition.

Hold on to the truths you’ve learned in your faith tradition.

Stand on God’s promises in Scripture, but don’t use your traditions to box him in. Or people, for that matter.

God is almighty, all powerful, and infinite.

He is bigger than a faith tradition.

Isaiah 55:8-9 says, “’For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,’ declares the Lord. ‘For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts.’”

Your job is to love. Let God handle the rest.


  1. Cater to your strengths.

You are a gift.

You bring so much to your world, and much of it was built into you from the beginning of time. Your personality type, your intelligence types, your love language, your learning style, your preferences and interests…Nobody has quite that same combo as you. They all combine to create this amazing person unlike any other. Your life intersects with other people, and you are a gift to them. In being that gift, and living your truest self to the fullest, you are simultaneously fulfilled.

If you want to bring your A-game and to be fulfilled by your pursuits, then do the things you’re best at. Your organization needs a volunteer? Volunteer to do something within your favorite skill set.

Until I started teaching First Year Seminar at our local community college, I thought my main intelligence type was spatial intelligence. While I have that, it’s not my main way of processing the world. My #1 type is WORDS. Go figure. I’m a writer and an English teacher. My other two strongest intelligence types are tied for second place: Interpersonal (how people interact…I know which of my loved ones will click with each other), and Intrapersonal (self-reflection and knowing what makes me tick and how to improve upon that). Applying this self-knowledge has made me a better person.

Your love language is part of your strength. Do you like to serve others behind the scenes as a way to show how much they mean to you? Do you like to affirm others with compliments and encouraging words? Is spending time, fully present, a gift you give others? Does physical touch show you care, such as rubbing your child’s back while waiting in line, or holding hands with someone? Do you buy tokens of your love to show somebody you’re thinking of them?

One of my main love languages is touch. The best thing I ever did for myself while single was to get a dog. She stopped me from being such a workaholic. I had to come home to walk her. She needed me more than I needed to grade papers. The unconditional love and constant affection of this Lab puppy stopped me from feeling needy, which stopped me from dating jerks and fools because I wasn’t so lonely. I started being choosier in who I dated, and eventually made the best choice of my life in dating and marrying my husband.

Quality time is a big deal to me. I love giving and receiving it. If we meet for coffee, I am grateful that you gave of your time.

To serve others is one of my husband’s main love languages. Let me tell you, being the recipient of this love language is awesome. I mean, the man does dishes, mows the lawn, and does tasks I don’t like. I feel so loved! It’s not my own love language, but I’ve found a way to speak it by tapping another one of my strengths. Cooking is a creative outlet for me, and he hates to cook. So, in preparing meals, I get to de-stress, and he feels loved. It has broadened who I am to learn to speak his language.

Love languages are very handy keys to having healthy relationships. Knowing yours plays to your strengths.

[Scroll to the end of this blog post for some resources on finding out your unique traits and strengths.]


  1. Follow your joy

Sometimes life hands you options. Sometimes those options look equally good or equally iffy. Try this as a solution:

Ask yourself which one would bring you the most joy.

I have discovered this key to decision making in recent years, and now it’s a deliberate part of my process.

Last fall, I found myself with two part time jobs in addition to wanting to finish editing my current work-in-process one more time before searching for a literary agent and publisher. Two part time jobs were too much when added to parenting and editing. I was overwhelmed, and realized I had to choose. I couldn’t do both jobs.

One option was to teach First Year Seminar at the local community college. I adore the content and the students. The course teaches how to be a successful student by tailoring your study style to your personal strengths. We address Myers-Briggs personality types, learning styles, and intelligence types. We also build community and build relationships in the class. I love seeing their faces as they discover their strengths.

The online job paid slightly better. It was related to teaching. I would be helping ESL (English as a Second Language) students with their college papers. Grammar is my least favorite aspect of teaching English. I prefer literary analysis and life application. I love building relationships with students, but this job meant giving grammatical feedback to strangers.

At first, the options seemed equal. When I asked myself which would give me the most joy, I realized I didn’t care that the online job could follow me when my family moves. I didn’t care that the money was better. I wouldn’t enjoy giving grammar tips to strangers. Seeking the joy helped me realize that the in-person job was the right one for me. I’m still enjoying that choice.


  1. Evolve

There’s no shame in evolving. In fact, there’s shame in not evolving. Learning is inherent in living. I defy you to find no issues on which you’ve changed your mind.

People who are unteachable and inflexible don’t make very good friends.

We tend to judge politicians who voted one way early in their career, but they’ve changed their vote now. I know that politicians are famous for selling out. But what if they simply learned some things that changed their minds?

My opinions and my tastes have evolved. Here are three examples of my own evolution:

On a small scale, pumpkin is a new love. As a Daddy’s Girl, I’ve always believed that my opinions would line up with my dad’s. He has always hated pumpkin pie, and we were never around other pumpkin products growing up. When I lived in Okinawa, I tried pumpkin tempura and loved it. So, when I moved back to the States in my late 30s, I decided to try a slice of pumpkin pie at Thanksgiving. Guess what?! I loved it. That summer, I tried pumpkin juice at Harry Potter World in Orlando. I loved it. I wondered what other pumpkin products I’d like. I’m kind of a pumpkin spice junky these days.

On a greater scale, I used to be uncomfortable with same-sex couples raising children. Since then, I’ve gotten to know some same sex couples better. I’ve had a few people I love come out to me, and they are people I trust and adore. I have no doubt they’d make great parents. Since then, I’ve come to see some statistical evidence that same-sex marriages are as stable (if not statistically slightly more) as heterosexual marriages. (I’m sorry that I don’t remember the source. Do your own research.) As an adoptive parent, I’ve become more aware of the need for adoptive families. Kids need love. Loving couples want to love them. I’m sold.

And a third example: I used to be neutral about Harry Potter, if not a teeny bit against the books. I liked that they fostered literacy around the world, but as a Christian, I was uncomfortable with the topic of witchcraft. Then I met a godly man who was a Harry Potter fan. I watched a few movies with him, then started reading the series. As a literature teacher, a good citizen, and as a Christian, I discovered that these books are powerfully good. They speak to our core needs. They teach values we’d like to see in all our communities. They model loyalty, and how to think for ourselves. And they are no more about witchcraft than CS Lewis’s The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe is about Turkish Delight. My conclusion: JK Rowling is the Shakespeare of our time because she brilliantly writes about timeless themes. Oh, and I married that man.

Again, I defy you to find no issues on which you’ve changed your mind.


  1. Practice thankfulness.

Thankfulness can heal wounds, improve self-esteem, and turn around the climate of a group. It’s even a stress management tool.

I have a practice that helps keep me mindful of thankfulness. It works for busy people, and it has improved my life. I used to save it for Lent, to combat my negative self-talk, but these days it’s a sporadic practice year-round.

  1. Get a piece of chocolate, or some other melty treat. I prefer two squares of white chocolate. For me, as much as I like dark chocolate, the bitter taste doesn’t work for a thankful state of mind. Go with your preference.
  2. Be alone. It will only be for a moment.
  3. Put the chocolate in your mouth. Close your eyes. Let the chocolate melt. No teeth.
  4. While the chocolate melts, still your mind and think about what you’re thankful for. If you’re a person of faith, direct the thankfulness to God.
  5. When the chocolate has melted completely, you’re done.
  6. For best results, do this daily or often for a specified period such as a month.

There will be days when you’ve done nothing but have a moment to yourself with a positive thought. But there will be other days when you have a profound epiphany thanks to the moment of meditation. Even the mundane times will add up their positivity. Gradually, a regular practice like this will increase your self-esteem and your peace of mind.

Note that thankfulness isn’t only a state of mind. It’s a gift you can give others. Thank people for things. You’ll find that giving thanks to others can change an environment for the better.

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There you have it. Fifty years of wisdom in nine nuggets.

For what it’s worth, I’m happy with my living so far and I’m looking forward to the decades to come.

Look, Mom! It may have taken longer than you wanted, but your prayer got answered.






So how can you find out about your strengths, or affirm the ones you already know about?

  • If you’ve never had your Myers-Briggs personality typed, you can find quizzes online fairly easily. Explanations usually come with quiz results, or you can watch a few YouTube videos. There are plenty to choose from.
  • Here’s a free quiz to find out about your intelligence types. While it goes into depth on your top two, you really ought to understand anything you scored above a 3 on: . Reflect on your quiz results. They show the way you interact with the world and the way you process things.
  • There are plenty of quizzes out there on learning styles. Here’s one I like to use: . Most sources will tell you that there are three types: Visual, Kinesthetic, or Auditory. I am a combo of Visual and Kinesthetic. Knowing this is how I process information helps me get things done. Don’t ask me to do something verbally unless you can wait for me to write it down. I simply don’t retain auditory info.
  • Here’s where I learned about the love languages: However, the author has several topical books out there that might suit you better. You can also find online quizzes with the author’s organization, or similar knockoffs elsewhere. Google is your friend for this.


Be a Probiotic, Not a Piranha

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As a shy extrovert, I’m a bit socially awkward. People are my joy, but initiating conversation with strangers and mere acquaintances takes bravery on my part. It’s been nice living in a part of the world where people are friendly and greet one another easily.

While shy, I am a reader of body language. Sometimes it registers at the gut level, while other times I deliberately look for people’s cues. What I’ve noticed around our little town is a growing number of people not meeting my eye, not greeting me with their usual friendly hellos, and hoping with every lean of their body that I won’t approach for a chat. Don’t worry; the shy person in me reads that and stays away. Nobody deliberately chooses rejection or fake interaction.

I discovered months ago that the town gossip and the ring leader of the local mean girls is a mommy peer who decided I was sub-par. I learned a long time ago that I’m not everyone’s cup of tea, and that’s okay. But this got to me. My first reaction was to feel superior. My second reaction was pity. Her life must be so sad and empty if she finds purpose in harming or controlling others. It didn’t take long to discover that neither attitude was helpful, so I simply chose to enjoy my life and the genuine people in it. Brene Brown taught me that she’s probably doing her best, so I just let it be.

This “letting go” only lasted a few months.

These days, I’ve increasingly observed formerly kind and cordial people no longer look me in the eye. Gone are their neighborly hellos. Now, they gently turn away when I’m in the vicinity.

I have to ask myself why certain people are pained at the possibility that I might join their cluster of conversation. Well, duh. The gossip.

You know what? It hurts. I have feelings, and my feelings are hurt.

I chose to finally own that and had a good cry that last night.

My husband is a good listener and he believes in me. He was afraid the rumors could be lies about our family. But our family is great! There is no fodder there. So it must be me, right?

I love truth and justice, and I wish I knew what was said to make formerly friendly people avoid me. Surely, I could speak truth into that! If they were gossiping about real traits of mine, maybe owning it would diffuse the feeding frenzy. And if it’s lies, perhaps a dose of truth would counteract things. [Just say it: “Sure, Pollyanna.”]

So after the good cry, and an hour’s escape into a TV show, I started doing what I do:

research and pray.

[Okay, if I’m honest, I spent some time last night imagining how I’d write the evil villain into a future novel. I mean, it’s not smart to mistreat a novelist. They. Will. Write. You. In. But, no. I’m bigger than that. It was entertaining to imagine, though.]

After praying before bed and all morning, here’s what I decided to do:

  1. Pray for my “enemy,” the likely source of all this.
  2. Pray for the lovely church in town. It’s is a common denominator in the gossip and the people subtly shunning me. Gossip is a disease that undermines the health of any group, and a common tool of the Enemy of All Things. I can intercede for the health of that church, it’s people, and their friendly pastor.
  3. Employ my pen. God gave me this pen. I will use it for good. Hence, this post.

What will I do with this pen? A call to action.

Let’s start a movement, you and I. An anti-gossip movement. It’s not just a small town problem. One of my dearest friends is dealing with the same thing, and she lives in the megalopolis we call the East Coast.

If gossip is a disease, let’s combat is like we do a disease.


What do we tell our children? WASH YOUR HANDS.

Don’t be attracted by others’ dirt. Don’t spread dirt. Don’t wallow in it.

Wash your hands of gossip. Don’t participate. Don’t use it to hold the attention of listeners. You probably already don’t do that. But how about this:

Wash your hands of impending gossip. You know the look somebody gets when they’re about to launch into somebody’s business. Shut them down. Give them a cue to zip it. And if you can’t think of one, walk away. Don’t feed on that chum.


Are you familiar with prebiotics? They feed the good microorganisms in your body. They create a hospitable environment for the healthy bacteria we call probiotics.

It’s hard to develop healthy eating habits. If you’re not used to things like leeks, jicama, asparagus, cabbage, Brussels sprouts, and sauerkraut, then it will take some time to introduce these prebiotics into your diet. But if you do so, you’re creating a healthy environment for the probiotics, or the healthy gut bacteria that is key to many aspects of your health.

How does this apply socially? Well, create a healthy environment.

Whatever groups you participate in, be it church, gym, clubs, neighborhoods, etc., let it be known that you won’t feed off of other’s personal lives and you won’t entertain those who do.

Make it socially uncool to do it. It could take some time, but you can influence the environment of any group you’re a part of. Do your part to make it a hospitable environment for good, honest connectedness to happen.


Probiotics fight the bad microorganisms. They are key to good gut health, which is key to your overall health.

How can you be a social probiotic?

Honor the vault. Brene Brown talks about the vault being the place where a friend can share their intimate details with you and know that their details are safe with you. You won’t share their details with others. You won’t treat them like fish food. You are not a piranha. When your friends know this, you can develop a healthy connection with each other. You can support one another. You can cheer on their successes and genuinely be happy for each other.

Spot the piranhas. You could choose to avoid them. But why not do your community a service and re-educate them? Show them the difference between feeding on others and true connectedness.

You can set boundaries. Tell them what is okay and what is not okay. (I also got that from Brene Brown. I’ve been a Brene Brown junky lately.)

Here are some sample boundaries you can set:

It’s okay to celebrate others’ victories.

It’s okay to share public stories to learn from others’ life journeys.

It’s okay to share details from your own life, good or bad, and to clarify for me whether this is public or private information.

It’s not okay to talk about things a person told you in the vault.

It’s not okay to celebrate others’ hardships.

It’s not okay to tear somebody down to make yourself feel special.

A piranha shares information told them in the vault. A piranha would share your information. Brene Brown says that people who gossip are trying to hotwire a connection with others. Sadly, if you build a common ground of hating the same people, you’ve created a counterfeit connection.

Be aware that gossip has two sources:

  1. cluelessness. The gossip doesn’t realize they’re about to harm you by spreading your info.
  2. maliciousness. This is the attempt to achieve social power.

I know I’ve inadvertently spread the clueless kind. For that I am truly sorry. I’ve never done the latter, but I believe the mean girl clique of the local high school grew up to be the mean mommies. It hurts to be their chum, to feed off whatever the ring leader is saying. I am not fish bait and neither are you.

If you know the source, you can fight the bad like a probiotic.

Be a probiotic, not a piranha.


ADHD: The 4 Letters That Set Me Free


The psychiatrist said, “You can’t parent ADHD out of a child,” and I wept.

Why? Because this one fact re-wrote my entire history as a parent: It’s brain chemistry. No behavior management skill can undo ADHD.


He released me from all the condemnation, both from myself and others.

It wasn’t my fault.

As I now journey backwards through various moments in parenting, I can see myself and my boys with new eyes. Come with me.

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My natural tendency is to blame myself first. It doesn’t take much to make me confirm my self-blame at the heart level. A comment by somebody who I respect. A dirty look from a stranger. Even without knowing it, I’m looking for somebody to say, “Yes, you’re to blame,” and that sticks for a long time.

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I knew I was going to be an amazing parent. So much so, that I was a strong self-advocate in the adoption process. Give me any questionnaire, any interview question, and I would give you all the evidence to back up the fact that I would be God’s gift to parenting.

I was a sought-after babysitter as a teen. For years, I babysat 6 nights per week, all the while maintaining good grades in school. I had clientele. Some of these parents even asked my advice on parenting.

I was a talented teacher. Granted, I taught middle school, high school, and community college. But I always maintained discipline and respect in the classroom. I was strict, but treated students with respect. Principals told me in every evaluation that it was apparent how much I cared for my students. This was going to translate to good parenting, right?

My own parents were great parents. There is so much they modeled to me that they did right. For me, their main talent in parenting me was instilling strong self-esteem. Though I was picked on a lot in school, I never once thought there was anything wrong with me. The mean words hurt deeply, but I always thought something was wrong with the bully. I valued myself..

But then came the reality of parenting.

By the time my two boys were mobile, I felt like a fish out of water. My attempts at guidance and discipline simply didn’t work. I had no idea how to do the behavior management with the boys that others were so clearly natural at doing. I couldn’t remember how I had been so effective all those decades earlier when I was a babysitter. And, clearly, whatever I did in the classroom with teenagers didn’t apply to my toddlers.

I’ll never forget the bossy mom who came to me at the indoor playground and said, “Here, let me teach you how to do a time-out.” I must have looked as clueless as I felt. With my permission, she took my kid and made it look both consistent and easy. From then on, I managed the same… some of the time.

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When my boys were one and two years old, I signed them up for a music appreciation class. It was held in a ballet studio. The perimeter of the classroom was all mirrors and barre. The teacher tied vividly colorful chiffon scarves along the barre.

Rule #1: Kids were not allowed to touch the barre or hang on it.

My boys entered the classroom and immediately went to the perimeter. They put handprints all over the mirrors, making silly faces at themselves or enjoying the grubby smudges they made. They touched the pretty scarves, hung on the barre, and ran from one corner to the other. The other kids huddled in the center with their moms.

Rule #2: No touching the stereo.

As they explored the room, my boys found the stereo system with its knobs and lights, and were all about touching it. Of course, I tried to intervene. I tried to convince them that this was a NO.

Rule #3: Don’t touch the teacher’s guitar.

The elegant older lady who taught the class would bring a bar stool to the middle of the room, near the mommies and kids, and play songs on her guitar. My boys wanted to touch it. They were impulsive about this. I tried to hold them back, but sometimes the urge was too strong for them. They wriggled out of my grasp. The teacher hated this. It was as if she’d never had a kid try to touch her precious guitar.

Rule #4: Sit and listen quietly when the teacher talks, sings, or teaches.

Yeah, my boys never accomplished this. Sitting still? Nope. My oldest was the king of blurting. Man, did that teacher get annoyed.

After the first class, I thought our boys must be smarter and more self-assured than the other kids. All the other kids stuck close to their moms. My boys explored. I’m a dog lover, and I know that curious equals smart when choosing a pup. So I thought, if a curious puppy is the smartest puppy, then my boys must be smarter than all the other kids. And as the other kids stuck with their moms, I thought my boys must feel so secure in themselves, so confident, that they could run all over a strange classroom without worrying where I was. Steve and I must be doing something right to have such confident little guys, right?

After the second class, I thought it was a shame that all these other mommies and kids were just like Stepford families. The other kids sat so still, were too timid to answer questions, and didn’t get up unless invited. My oldest blurted answers while everyone else was still thinking things through.

[Am I showing my age at this reference? Have you seen the 1975 thriller, the Stepford Wives? If not, here.  There was also the more recent Nicole Kidman remake. These two trailers give you the gist: one & two.]

After the third class and beyond, I realized that I had no control over my kids. When I had one firmly in my lap, the other one got up and ran around. It didn’t matter to my kids that everyone else was sitting and listening. My kids couldn’t transition from movement to quiet stillness, while the other kids complied in moments.

I wondered what these moms were doing that I hadn’t figured out. Did I miss something while I was off gallivanting around other countries while my girlfriends were home in the States having babies? Was there a skill I had forgotten or never learned that all these mommies knew? I simply couldn’t figure out what they were doing differently.

About four or five weeks in, my oldest got kicked out of music class. He was devastated and hurt. We tried coming back the next week. You know, getting back on the horse and all that. But the rejection was too much for him. Returning was traumatic. Honestly, the teacher felt more enemy than ally to me as well. She let us quit and even gave us a partial refund. I think she was just relieved we weren’t coming back.

I chatted with other moms at playgrounds and events. We all had similar research into nutrition, developmental stages, and other mommy-ish things. So why were my kids so unruly when their kids could rein it in?

I asked about the possibility of ADHD at well-baby doctor visits, but I was told not to worry about it because it was all age-appropriate behavior that I was describing. It wasn’t supposed to be an issue until they started school.

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At some point, I started to think my job as a mom was harder than that of other moms.

I blamed being an older mommy. I was 42 when we adopted our first, and 43 for our second son’s birth. I was tired. It must be because I was old, right?

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Our oldest could re-program our phones at 10 months. Two months later, we were told he had the attention span of a four year old, and that we didn’t need any more Early Childhood Intervention. We’d signed up for ECI in case something cropped up. There are lots of variables with adopted kids, and one of our boys had a traumatic birth, so we wanted professional eyes on our little ones in case there was something they needed that we were clueless about.

Our first son knew his letters, colors, and shapes before his second birthday. He could count to 20 by two-and-a-half, though he didn’t grasp quantities until later.

I didn’t initially intend to put a three year old in school, but my husband and I decided that it would be a crime not to give him all the benefits such a brilliant mind needed. His birth mom had read at a college level in sixth grade. My husband and I knew our baby was smarter than the two of us put together, despite the multiple Master’s degrees between us. So I started looking for a Montessori school because our kid was a self-taught self-starter. Makes sense, right?

Spoiler: Montessori and ADHD don’t go well together.

I chose a good school that had both Montessori and traditional Pre-K classes, and we enrolled our son in Montessori. His main teacher was loving, huggy, and nurturing. Her assistant often came out to give me feedback on how our son was doing.

At the end of his first week of school, the teaching assistant said, “You still have your boys in high chairs, don’t you?” Her judgy tone said I seriously had no clue what was developmentally appropriate, so I was ashamed when I answered, “Yes.”

“Your son can’t stay in his seat, especially at lunch. You’re going to need to stop using the high chair so that we can get him used to staying in his seat on his own.”

Steve and I instantly implemented this. After all, we wanted our discipline at home to back up our son’s needs at school. And the needs of the teacher and the class. Having been a classroom teacher, I know how one kid can throw off the focus of an entire classroom. I didn’t want my son to be that kid.

Looking back, I realize that we had done a good thing keeping our kids in their high chairs. I wish I had kept those chairs around for crafts and projects. Our oldest loved Play-Doh and could sit in his high chair for 45 minutes, happily playing and making things. The moment he asked to get down, we would clean up and he’d get down. He also loved coloring, gluing, etc. in his high chair.

After we got rid of the high chairs, his attention span for things like Play-Doh was a good five minutes. Max. Projects were now a thing of the past.

Our second son ate less after we put away the high chairs. There was something about the seatbelts in the high chair that helped him focus on his food. To this day, he eats better in his car seat than he does at the dinner table.

Our kids now hated coloring. They despised board games and anything else that required instruction or sitting long.

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Our oldest started getting the occasional time out or “lonely lunches” in school. The assistant teacher continued to come outside after school to share his disruptive behavior with me. I trusted her as an expert in early childhood education and discipline, and asked for feedback and advice. I opened my heart to her. I trusted her. I believed she had my son’s best interest at heart. And I think she did in the beginning, before she got tired of all the redirection and disruptions.

We started reading parenting books like Love and Logic. Each promised to revolutionize our kids’ behavior. Each had sparks of hope, and we gleaned quite a few valuable things, but our kids were never revolutionized.

Despite all the measures I took to prevent it, I lost our oldest at the Discovery Center, at the mall, and at an indoor playground. After the time I found him in the parking lot, we quit doing things that didn’t have enclosures and gates unless we had a 1:1 adult-to-child ratio. It was just too stressful to constantly fear for their safety.

When I got brave and went back to doing outings on my own, I started a mantra for the kids to repeat over and over: HAVE FUN, AND STICK TOGETHER. It was fairly successful, especially because the penalty for not sticking together was that we had to go home. But I did spend my entire time redirecting my boys. It was mentally and emotionally exhausting.

Personally, I got high strung about parenting. Especially in public. I was wound so tightly, I’m sure most people in our community witnessed me shrieking at some point or other. It became common to get dirty looks from other mommies. I guess it’s not really a wanted behavior to have a shrieking mommy around.

At some point, even little things set me over the edge. I knew I had to work on myself and my responses. It took a long time –months? A year?– to stop the shrieking. I was so worn out by the end of the day that I dreaded the work-intensive bedtime routine.

I figured out that I was physically ill from gluten intolerance, and that eating my kids’ leftovers (pancakes, waffles, PB&Js, grilled cheeses, toddler munchies) was making me sicker and sicker. While going gluten free revolutionized my energy, joint pain, brain fog, and other physical issues, my kids’ behavior didn’t improve under a stronger, kinder, more rational mom.

The huggy Montessori teacher moved to another school the following year, and the assistant teacher became the head teacher. My darling, brilliant son began to spend much of his school day in time out. If he wasn’t in time out, he was in the principal’s office. He was denied unit culminating activities like exploding the volcano, because he “didn’t deserve to be there.” I trusted the teacher, and agreed that misbehavior needed consequences, but by October I started to wonder why this teacher was continuing consequences that didn’t have any results. Didn’t she know more than I did about early childhood?

We all knew how incredibly intelligent my son is. We all agreed that he knew better. So we thought he was being defiant.

Spoiler alert: This is what ADHD plus Strong-Willed-Child looks like.

I started to feel ill every time my son’s teacher came outside to talk to me about the issues of the day. My son knew better. His behavior was due to inconsistent parenting. We needed to be consistent at home if he was going to succeed at school. This was her feedback for months and months. My self-esteem plummeted.

We tried more parenting books. We tried an online parenting class. We tried parent-teacher conferences and making behavior plans.

I prayed my brains out every day, and this, I believe, was key to the upturn in our lives.

A friend who was once a preschool teacher told me that my son’s teacher needed to record what sort of things set off his negative behavior. If there was an unwanted outcome, what was triggering it? She also said my son needed more MOVEMENT, not more time-outs. The big shocker? She told me that there are no time-outs in Montessori.

Wait. WHAT?!?!

This teacher’s position as my favorite consultant slipped a little. Was she even qualified to teach Montessori? I was frankly afraid to ask.

Then, when I was so stressed out by my son’s misbehavior and my inability to parent it out of him, I was ready to snap. The teacher came out to the school lobby one day in January, and got me so wound up with her criticism of our parenting, that I started to cry. In public. I am not a crier. I was simply at the end of my rope. And then my sons both acted out, and my oldest got in my face, and I smacked him. In public. In a school. She told later that I was lucky they didn’t call CPS on me. Now I was afraid to criticize the teacher because I might get accused of being abusive.

And then my son’s teacher said something that I knew as 100% false. She said that my son was acting out –in January—because we told him that my husband’s military career was likely moving us that summer, and, therefore, my son believed his behavior didn’t count now because we were moving anyway. Seriously, that’s what this woman said. First, does a four year old think long-term like that? No. Second, if every military dependent misbehaved within months of a change of duty station, then we’d have an outbreak of suspended and expelled kids around every military base in the world. I was insulted on behalf of every military family out there.

This utter bull crap was a gift. Now my #1 child behavior consultant was no longer credible in my eyes. I started to weigh all her other feedback, and she fell short.

Conferences with her and her new assistant bore little fruit, so I asked for a conference with the principal. The principal did some observations and concluded that Montessori wasn’t a fit for our son. By mid-February, he was in a regular preschool class. He learned more from February to May than he had in all his time at Montessori.

[Note: I respected the principal for not throwing the teacher under the bus. When I’m a teacher, I like to know that my boss has my back. While I personally felt the teacher had done a lot of damage, the principal never blamed the teacher in my presence. Instead, she gave me the outcome that was in my son’s best interest, and that’s what counts. He was moved to a better situation and he learned a great deal in the new classroom.]

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I haven’t said much about our second son’s traits, but his distractibility was intense. While I was told for a long time that it was age appropriate, our pediatrician heard me describe ADHD at the checkup right after his fifth birthday.

Here are some examples:

  • I could put a toothbrush in his hand, with toothpaste on it, and he’d forget he was supposed to brush his teeth. Something would catch his eye at the bathroom counter or in the mirror.
  • I would give him 1-3 simple tasks, like Potty-Hands-Teeth, he would chant the three with me, and I would come check on him twenty minutes later. He wouldn’t have done a single one.
  • Sometimes, he would forget he had food in his mouth. It would stay there for ages, un-chewed, until somebody noticed and reminded him to chew and swallow.
  • Heaven forbid I would send him to another room to get something. He would disappear for ages, distracted by things along the way.

It’s no wonder his preschool teacher had so much trouble trying to teach him how to write his name. Something would distract him, even there seemed to be no distractions present.

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I will spare you the continued journey and jump to the final defining moment.

In the summer of 2017, when my boys were nearly 5 and 6, I observed my youngest having hyper focus and it was getting worse. I used to have to walk across the room, tap him, and make eye contact before he could hear me. By August, I had to do a deep-tissue squeeze to break his hyper focus before speaking to him. It was mostly with the television and during his hour of tablet time, but it would also happen when he was lost in another activity or toy. By September, he would wet himself while playing on his tablet, and he had no idea he had peed. Once, he even pooped himself and had no clue that it happened. That’s how intense his hyper focus was.

I have a Master’s Degree in Secondary Education. Though my one semester covering Special Education barely scratched the surface, and I never quite figured out how to help the students in my classroom with ADHD during my 3 or 4 years of teaching Middle School, I did remember that hyper focus is a trait of Attention Deficit Disorders.

I asked the pediatrician about the hyper focus during our annual September checkups. She referred me to her in-house psychiatrist. He gave us a questionnaire for us to fill out, and one for our younger son’s preschool teacher.

Upon reading it, I realized that our oldest son also had a lot of the characteristics, so we did forms for both kids.

One of the questions asked about whether going to the mall with my children instilled a fear that they’d run off and get lost. On a scale of one to five, I wanted to rate that a HECK YEAH.

Another question was about the inability to stay in their chairs during meals. Another HECK YEAH.

We filled out our questionnaires, got them back from the teachers, and the psychiatrist shared his observations with us.

He explained that most kids walk into a strange room with a strange adult and cling to their parent. Our boys walked into the psychiatrist’s office, explored every corner of the room, touched things, picked up the psychiatrist’s belongings, sat upside down in the wingback chair, blurted questions, and the son I thought might be ADD and not ADHD (H = hyper), had climbed the built-in bookshelf nearly to the ceiling in order to retrieve a basketball. The psychiatrist said that he observed classic ADHD behaviors, and that the H applied to both kids.

He explained impulse control and distractibility.

He explained that our boys didn’t have an on/off button like other kids. ADHD means that our boys can’t get into line immediately after playing hard at recess. There’s no ability to switch to “settle down” from active mode. It has to happen gradually. And they can’t go from physically active or excited to bed without a long process of settling down.

He explained brain chemistry.

And that’s when he told me that behavior modification works for issues like a child being Oppositional, but that


And I wept.

I heard the months and years of self-condemnation in my head, and realized that it was the voice of the second Montessori teacher. I knew I needed to forgive myself for all my mistakes and realized I could never have fixed the ADHD with my parenting. I knew I needed to forgive that teacher for her bad advice, for all the time outs, for all the times she excluded my son, for all his hours in the principal’s office, for the “lonely lunches,” and all the other times he was treated as unworthy. I needed to forgive her, even though it was my mind that turned her into the voice of condemnation.

I longed to call the school and ask them to educate their teachers about ADHD, to help parents recognize the traits, to teach teachers how to better educate a kid with attention deficits. Once a person understands the disorder, then can stop blaming and judging the parents.

I look back at all this time and realize that, every time my husband and I tried a new parenting method, we executed the method as flawlessly as humans can. My husband and I were as consistent as parents can be. However, because I am always the first one to say I’m at fault, I FOUND inconsistent parenting in myself and my husband when I was told that my son’s behavior was due to inconsistent parenting. I made the facts match what I had come to believe. Does that make sense? I was told I sucked as a parent (not in those words) and so I believed it. I owned it. I was on a merry-go-round of self-condemnation.

And then we got the diagnosis: ADHD.

And we researched it.

And I had a new set of lenses through which to look at my children and at myself as a parent.

Guess what? I’m a pretty darn good parent. Not flawless, but good enough to say it’s my calling like I believed all along. God chose me for these boys. And he chose them for me. And we are a team. I adore them. Always have. But now I understand them better. I’m growing in my understanding of their needs. And I can nurture them and build them up and do my best for the damage previously done to their self-esteem.

Through all of this, I thank God for my even-keeled, intelligent, kind, consistent, affirming husband. The boys and I needed him.

I’ve discovered an amazing team member in my son’s Kindergarten teacher. She is a godsend. Add to her the psychiatrist, pediatrician, and the best reference tool on the planet, and we’re in a pretty good place. Here’s a link to the reference book that has the latest research. It answers most of my questions.

The book has given me insight into their needs. It has dispelled myths on parenting, medication, and other issues. It’s backed with decades of research and the experience of professionals with medical and psychology degrees. It has taught me to think more scientifically about what I read.

In our house, we now experience peace and fun most days. I have some parenting habits to undo, things that don’t work for ADHD kids, but overall I’m more affirming, more confident, and more encouraging than ever. I know this parenting gig is not all about me, while much of this post has been. But parenting is a journey, and we need to understand ourselves to better parent our kids.

We do projects again. My oldest son likes coloring in his free time. He’s rather artistic, in fact. And my youngest does Math for fun these days. Our little athletes are coachable now!

I feel like I know my sons better. If it’s possible, I’m more in love with my boys than ever.

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Do you have a child who might have ADHD? The sooner you can get help, but more chance you have of it not trashing his or her self-esteem academically or socially. ADHD can get lonely for a kid.

I’m still learning, still forgiving, still need to read the rest of the ADHD reference book.

But the victories. THE VICTORIES!

I breathe easier these days.

The Gentle Strength of Mr. Rogers


The word that is my guiding star in 2018 is GENTLENESS.

Early last week, I saw the video that’s going around Facebook of Fred Rogers testifying on behalf of public television to ask for federal funding. The senator in charge initially looked like all he wanted to do was brush off Mr. Rogers. Mr. Rogers kept going, gently saying what he had to say. When he was done, the hardened senator awarded him millions of dollars and turned the tide for public television funding.

The testimony brought back memories of the influence Mr. Rogers had on my self-esteem when I was 3-5yrs old. He truly was my best friend. As memories returned for a few days, I decided to show my sons (5 & 6yrs) an episode of Mr. Rogers Neighborhood. I didn’t expect them to like it. There’s nothing high-tech about it, nothing slick. And yet, my boys were riveted. My 6yr old is especially absorbing his message of love and belonging. I didn’t expect this. I assumed I would have grown out of Mr. Rogers by 6 if my family hadn’t moved overseas when I was 5.

I changed our “no technology in the car for Lent” practice to “nothing but Mr. Rogers.” The boys are eager for new installments of the show.

Listening to his gentle way of talking to children is rubbing off on me. He’s not just speaking life and love into the hearts and minds of my sons. He is also helping me grow in my one word: GENTLENESS. I hope they keep their interest in the show far beyond Lent, because I need his influence too. He’s a true example to me.